Why I read

If I could capture the memories  I made today  I would freeze them in a air tight container  Then time would not slip away and forgetting  would not be an option  Life would be lived in the now and the later  Everything in its place  If I could capture the memories  If I could capture the memories I made today  I would store them in a safe beneath a basement  Pulling them out one by one and watching them play out  Holding onto special times and treasured keepsakes  If I could have captured the memories  

There is a reason  I do not go to bars  There is a reason I do not think of New Year's Eve  the same way you do There is a reason I carry the load of my father's mistakes  There is a reason I am wound up  There is a reason  why I carry the pain  I keep close  There is a reason I  do not trust  There is a reason I am in no hurry to follow the same path  my father did  There is a reason  I am quick to judge  There is a reason I take on the world and come up short  There is a reason I do not have lots of friends  There is a reason I pray for peace  There is a reason I hold on  There is a reason 

It is hard to wrap my mind around  Almost losing you  If I stop and think about I will fall apart  Thank you Jesus is not enough  for him saving your baby sister's life.  Almost  God's will is what he has planned I get it  Still I am in awe of the same person who died on the cross  was listening to my prayers and my friends and my family  for my little sister  I am grateful for Wayne taking her to the Vet  And The Vet for helping her. Almost.  I love her  And I cannot image life without her  Prayer is so powerful  Jesus is so faithful.  Almost.  Almost never happend.   Thank you Jesus.